Friday, February 11, 2011

Something´s gotta give....

So I wish my post was all inspirational...but again we have had bad news from our container....and it looks like we will be doing some waiting around the house hold...customs is not out friend... I wish I could explain how I feel, but mostly I just don´t think I can feel anything else....I just don´t know how long I can live with this situation anymore....I wish I could see a light at the end of the tunnel and feel all faithful and warm inside....but I feel like I am stuck and hopeless...

No container, still living with my parents (for the past 3 weeks we have been " kicked out" of our temporary one-bedroom because my great-aunt wants to remodel and sell it) and so we are back to my parents house...

What am I supposed to learn through this??? any ideas out there?

5 comments:

Rachel and her Brasileiros said...

Babi, I don't have the perfect answer for you. Last fall when I was sick beyond belief, I couldn't take care of my boys, I couldn't take care of the house, I was a terrible wife and mother. I kept thinking, what am I learning from being this sick? Why do I have to pass through this? Why do families that are doing their best to do everything right have to suffer so much? I would pray that I would feel better, but then I stopped praying for that altogether because my prayers were not be answered. People in our Ward helped a lot, but it still didn't make it much easier to endure. I still don't know why some people have it easier than others, but I've learned this: sometimes we just have to endure. I'm not going to even say "endure it well" because I don't think I endured being bed-ridden for 4 months, well. But I did endure it. What did I learn from it? Maybe to not pray for what you think you deserve or want (even if it's selfless), because you will feel like your losing your faith when that prayer isn't answered. Pray to just get through each day. Because it could be worse (even though it doesn't seem like it). beijos

Os Amorims said...

Babi, acho que a Rachel já disse tudo... por aqui as coisas nao estao taaao diferente também nao... e eu sempre oro, oro, oro... mas relembro do passado e conto as minhas bencaos.... e sei que é mais uma provação e que o Senhor apenas quer que eu tenha mais fé nele, que eu rely on him mais do que antes... força, amiga!! "Everything is going to be juuuust fine!"... we are praying for you!
Beijos!

Aline Carson said...

Nossa col, que coisa. Deve estar sendo muito difícil mesmo, I'm SO sorry! Eu queria poder estar aí pra gente dar umas saídas, pra cheer you up. Pq por comentário no blog não é lá essas coisas. Mas sinta-se abraçada e amada col, because you are, very, very, much! Tô morrendo de saudade, as vezes eu nem acredito como as coisas played out, vc mudou pra aí e eu mudei daí. Anyway. Hope you feel better col. Eu acho que depois de tudo isso vc vai dar muito mais valor a vida em si. Talvez vc esteja passando por tudo isso pra realmente começar a enjoy life in Brasil. Pq acho que depois que vc tiver sua casinha, suas coisinhas, as outras coisas serão tão pequenas perto de toda a felicidade que vc estará sentindo. E maybe, just maybe, you'll look back and smile thinking about the times you guys spent together in the little apartment. Living with almost nothing. I think you have grown SO much already from this whole experience. Segura firme col, eu tenho certeza que as coisas vão melhorar, mesmo que seja difícil pra vc enxergar isso. (Eu acho que é mais fácil pra gente que não está passando por essa situação enxergar a luz no fundo do túnel).
Enquanto isso col, faz um favor pra mim. Vai lá na feira e come um pastelzinho com caldo de cana POR FAVOR! haha...Te amo! :)

Katy-the-lady said...

OH LADY!!! NO WAY! You can do this! Just look short-term perspective...one day at a day. I put your name in the temple every week and pray for you. Don't give in to discouragement! HUGS!!!

Paty said...

Babi, I don't know what to say, I'm sorry that you are going through so many hard things right now. You are a strong woman and can get through anything, continue with that strength and just be optimistic. I'm sure things will work out for you and will get better soon. You guys are in my prayers and I wish the very best to you and your family.

I remember one time during a fireside (charla fogonera) in Oakland, I heard a member talking about all the hard times he and his family were going through. He said his life had been great, their life just seemed perfect, then they got baptized and everything changed, he said it was like they're luck had left them. They struggled as they went through so many hardships. Then there was a breakthrough and he said blessings just came upon them, and their life became better than it was even before their struggles. He compared it to an hour glass were is wide (his life before) then the narrow part (right after baptism), and finally the wide area again. He said, he felt like he was just being tested during his trials, just to see how much faith he really had. He said, how he just put his trust in the Lord and he overcame his trials. Sorry, I'm rambling on...but I know things will start looking up for you.